It's been more than a year since the last time I post anything in here. So many things happen to me during that period. Some worth to mention, some not. I don't know what exactly that makes me stop writing in here, perhaps because I found another medium to write (although different kind of writing) or simply because I was lazy, but I guess it's time to start writing in here again.
My dad passed away two months ago. It kinda changed me, and in some ways I feel like I'm losing direction. I don't know what I want to do with my future. Simply put, I lost the goal to be more than I am today.
It seems injustice to blame my dad's death for that, and I have no intention to it. I can't denied there's an empty void inside of me. I've been trying to fill it with things and other people but I realize there's nothing in this world that could fill it. The hole will always be there for the rest of my life. I just have to get used to it.
Hopefully I'll find something worth fighting for my future.
me, myself, and I
- Syahrini
- I'm the kind of person who cry when I see animal being tortures, who enjoy walking in the evening with ipod plug into ears, who love fruits except durian, and a huge pink-hater. A big spender in term of books and food, who like to mingle with friends accompanied by a cup of tea or coffee, or just sit in a comfort couch reading good books, who doesn't like to be pushed, who prefer bitter truth instead of beautiful lie. Who may not be the first to arrive in finish line on every race, but surely enjoy the ride, stop for smell some flowers, watch the view, and learn the lessons of life.
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